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Just Grin – by Jodi Corby 1.9.97

Sitting in this crowded hall

The roof is caving in

Just like in life when you fall

When all else fails just grin.

 

A smile does a world of good

And just to yourself

It makes others feel like they should

That they are worth great wealth.

 

So when you are feeling all alone

And have commited another sin

Just remember this little poem

And when all else fails, just grin.

 

Like the time your boyfriend said goodbye

Or you are left without a friend

Dont left let a tear get near your eye

Or it’ll be the end.

 

Just sit and take a deep breath

And smile to yourself

And remember in much depth

That you are worth great wealth

 

Much more then treasure or money

Is the habit you are indulging in

That whenever trouble comes your way

When all else fails, just grin!

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A glimpse at my teenage self.

As a teenager I kept a diary. Sometimes it’s fun to look back at my teenage life and to read the things that I was worried about,rejoicing in or passionate about. I used to write poetry. IT didn’t matter whether I was good or bad at it. I did it because I enjoyed it and it was a great way of getting my inner thoughts or feelings out.  It’s fun to read over my poems again. I thought it might be fun to share some of my old poems here. I’m not claiming that they are great or even share worthy but they are just a glimpse into my inner self. So here goes…

 

Jesus’s Love written by Jodi Corby on 2/9/97 age 17

Pencil shavings

Shaved off with a knife

Just like the years

Shaved off our life

 

 

The pencil gets shorter

The years role on by

Our lives getting shorter

Destined to die

 

Still we live on

Taking each day

Where have we gone wrong

We’re destined to pay

 

To die is our part

In the result of sin

So open your heart

And let Jesus in

 

He’ll fill the part

That was made just for him

And you’ll live forever

So put on a grin

 

Repent and be glad

Your life will not end

Never be sad

Cause He’ll be your friend

 

He guides and He loves

So you don’t have to pay

He already does

When he died on that day

 

A day that was sad

And full of tears

But he never was bad

All through those years

 

So now we must be thoughtful

And live our lives proud

That Jesus was merciful

And will come in the clouds

 

In the clouds way up high

I’ll meet Him there

So never cry

Cause He really does care

 

He cares very much

What goes on below

If only we could touch

I’d never be low

 

So as your life goes on by

And you accept the white dove

Remember never to cry

‘Cause you have Jesus’ love!

 

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The real me?

Do you ever sometimes feel like you aren’t being the real you? Or that you don’t really know who the real you is? I do.

Sometimes I wonder if I’m really being who I am or how I am supposed to be. I wonder if I am doing what God planned for me. I wonder if I am wearing what I should be wearing, or saying what I should be saying. I wonder a lot.

As a teenager, I talked a lot (nothings changed… my Mum says I talked the most out of all of her children…and she had 7! ), I smiled a lot, I laughed a lot, I joked a lot, I wore farm clothes ( I LOVED my stetson, boots and flanny), I wore vintage clothes (flares pants and bell bottoms suits right out of my mothers cupboard from the 60’s and 70’s), I loved all things old (my sisters always told me I was born in the wrong era… I should have been born in the 50’s, 60’s or 70’s!).  But as I grew older, I feel like I have lost a bit of my carefree self. I guess this happens with age. We grow up. We mature (not that I was never a mature teenager…I was always the ‘sensible/reliable one’).

We try to fit into the mould of how we think we should be. I became a teacher (read sensible, corporate like clothing), I got married (to a man who didn’t really appreciate my vintage clothing choices) and began life as I thought I should live it. I threw out a lot of the things I loved. I bought new clothes and tried to fit into the life I thought I should be living.

I once asked my Mum what she had wanted to be when she grew up… she replied ‘A housewife’. I often thought about this answer and all that it entailed. I used to think that maybe she had wanted to be something else but had so many children that she then HAD to ‘just’ be a housewife to look after them all.

I guess before I had my own children I didn’t really think much about what having them would do to my career, to who I had become. I suppose I thought that maybe I would one day teach again as I loved teaching. Shaping the lives of children, spending hours with them everyday, helping them to learn and being excited at their progress. Little did I realise what a difference having my own would make.

I never want that career for myself anymore. It frustrates me. It feels unnatural and I feel sorry for the children there. I still teach casually but I don’t enjoy it like I used to. I feel frustrated when the children misbehave and I can’t ‘train’ them easily (being there for such a short amount of time and they know teachers are fairly powerless over them really). I can see the rewards of training in my own children and can see what that ‘lack of training’ for so many hours in a day can cause a child to be like. I see how tired the children get throughout the day and how ‘brain fatigued’ that can get yet there is so much in the curriculum to try to fit into their lessons and into their day. I see children who just want to sit and cuddle or who just want to play outside and explore and burn off their energy but are confined to the perimeters of the designated curriculum. I just want to say to them…lets forget about this anti bullying program and lets go climb the trees outside or lets go dabble or feet in that river… things I am restricted in doing as a teacher. Maybe God never actually planned for me to teach in schools but was preparing me for something else. For my real job in life.

I guess all of this boils down to a change in my mindset. A change in who I thought I was or wanted to be or who I had to be to realising that I am not that person anymore. I have come to realise that I don’t want that boxed in self that I turned into. I want to be more like who I was. More like who I think I really am. I want to embrace my inner self. To wear the clothes I enjoy more and not be worried about how others will judge me. Decorate how I want to decorate and not try to please everyone else. I want to encourage my children to embrace the carefree nature that they naturally posses. To not try to box them into a world of shoulds.

I have always wanted a bigger family. I originally wanted about 4 children. I have to come to realise that I wanted a big family to give my children what I was given. To show them the life that I loved, that I lived. I thought I needed lots of children to teach them the values that I was taught. I have since come to realise that this is not the case. I can teach my children what they need to be taught whether I have 2 or 4 (and my family is complete with 2).

The more I think about it, the more I want to homeschool my children (or Steiner as second resort). Maybe this was what God was preparing me for all along. There is a season for everything. I’ve been through my season for being a career women. Now is my season for being a mum. I want to be able to share in their joy and excitement as they learn and discover. I want to be able to enhance their strengths and encourage their weaknesses. I want to be able to say, you know what, I can see that you’ve had enough… lets go outside and climb a tree (something you can more easily do with 2 then with 24!). I know that this may not happen (hubby needs a little more convincing) and I will accept that if thats what the future holds as that will be a new season to explore and enjoy. (To be honest, I am also a little scared at the prospect… the idea of being in charge of my childs whole learning is a little frightening. As a teacher I could always see the benefits of children changing classes as what one teacher lacked, another made up therefore creating a balanced education). However, I can’r shake the thought. I have faith though that if this is what God wants for our family, he will see that it happens (lots of prayers and faith in his will).

This year could be Matildas last year at home. I hope it isn’t but I also know she is ready for more. She asks constantly when can she go to school as lots of her friends are headed that way. I don’t want to throw her into formal education yet as I think she is still too young and I don’t want to kill off her enthusiasm before she is actually ready to take it all in. I need to engage her more. To spend more time encouraging her creative play and interacting with her.  I want to  be more engaged in her world and in her learning. To help her embrace her childhood.

I guess I’m just wanting to write down some of my thoughts and goals for this new year. For 2012. These are some thoughts showing where my mind is at and where is wants to be. Praying for a joyous year filled with fun, memories and living a wonderful, carefree simple life 🙂

 

 

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Why oh why?

Do I spend my free time evenings sitting at the computer dreaming of what I could be making instead of sitting at the sewing machine sewing what I dreamed of making yesterday??!!

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Time.

Today we are spending the afternoon with Nan.

She will be 80 next month. Man I love that woman. She’s always so much fun. She has a great sense of humour. Always making jokes. She has always been so accepting too. Always helpful when she can be. It’s been really difficult to see her health decline over the last 12 months or so. The girls and I will spend the afternoon hanging out at Nan’s for two reasons. Firstly, we love hanging out with her. Secondly, this will give Uncle David a break, an afternoon to get out.

I guess I should pack a few things for the kids to do while we are there.

Tilly is suggesting we-

* Bake for Nan
* Play with play dough
* Watch cartoons
* Play with the toys at Nans
* Take a backpack with toys to play with

Looks like our afternoon is going to be full of fun and games 😀

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Hmm…

Seems it’s been quite a while since I wrote a blog post here. I figured pretty much anyone who reads this blog is also on Facebook except my Mother In Law (and she joined last week ;D) so it seemed a little pointless to have it to share pics etc. After a bit of thinking though, I have decided that I still do want to blog. Just when I feel like it. That being the case, blog posts may still be few and far between or you may be swamped, who knows. I’m not even sure if anyone will see this post. If you do, please leave me a little comment so I know you are out there 😀 If none is reading it, thats good too. I want this blog to be more for me. Not caring who will read it, or what I am posting for who but just writing what I want to write and sharing pics of what I want to share pics of. My own online journal I guess.

Japanese paper lanterns painted with Cherry blossoms.

I’ve been teaching again this week. I have an ongoing casual position teaching grade 3 art and I really enjoy it. I was a little worried to begin with as I have a class of 24, 16 of them being boys. Yep that tells you why their regular teacher wanted someone else to teach art. Think messy, noisy, active boys. However, I love it! I am always so proud of what they produce for me. They are always surprising me with their talents and with their kindness. I love that class already. Isn’t it funny how kids have that effect on us?! They drive us crazy but make us love them all at the same time.

I guess my own kids are a bit like that too. Tilly has this way about her now. She will drive you barny with her actions and then turn around and say ‘I’m so sorry Mum, do you forgive me?’ It’s so sweet and cute and melts my heart straight away.

Maybe God built kids this way, to keep us on our toes 🙂

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A new toy :)

We picked up our new car today 😀 it’s ‘very nice!’ (said in my best Bruno accent).

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